need a break

I really need to find some variety in what I eat. It's basically lots of cottage cheese, veggies, whole grain bread, fruit, tofu and veggie meat-less products such as garden burgers etc.

I'm not sure how on earth I stay full. Must be all the fiber I eat.

Woke up today and felt like all my energy was gone. My whole body was sore, but nothing too bad, just enough to know that I had worked out. I was so out of energy that I was almost too lazy to go make myself breakfast. I actually sat down for like a half hour after getting up. Maybe I need to eat a bit more before going to bed.

I got on the scale and lost 6lbs since I last checked!! Not bad! I don't want to make a big deal out of it since I have a long, long way to go. My pants also feel a lot more lose. I might need to drop a pant size by next week. I hope so! It takes some effort to keep my pants up with a belt! That's a good sign I need a different size. I hope it's just not my imagination.

My guess is that so far i've lost about 15-20lbs. I hope so. Every single day it feels as if my body is changing. All my muscles are just feeling strange. The goal of getting to my original weight seems too hard, but maybe it will work out today. I want to try and look again and imagine what that would be like. I only have until November 2nd. If I don't reach it, I will keep going.

I made another mistake recently. I bought some individual string cheese that was 3.5g of fat per serving. Well after my main course I ate like 3 of them that night. Not all at once. That was an extra 10.5g of fat I did NOT need. I ended up throwing them all out.

I also have been eating a lot of boxes of raisins. One per day. I think there are better options. For one box it's over 33g of carbs, pretty much all sugar. 30g of Sugar. Maybe I should just eat some other type of fruit. I need to find out how much sugar is in a bannana. Probably not much.

I'm so glad I don't eat that Subway Pizza now. It's 630 calories, but 100G of carbs!! I think that's too much for one meal. It's all white flour too I think. I guess 2 pieces would be ok on a free day.

I think from now on my free day is going to be 3 pieces of somewhat healthy pizza every weekend. Last week we got a multigrain veggie pizza at Pizza Hut. I really liked that and I could do much, much worse for a free meal as a reward. That will be something to look forward to.

I've been working non-stop all this week without a break. Like working and then going to bed. I NEED a break so bad. I'm looking forward to a day off to just sit around and play videos for several hours or watch some movies. Time away to do nothing. I haven't even gotten a chance to sit in my nice new recliner that I bought for more then a half hour.